flying clothes

Dear Mommy,

I'm feeling much much better today! I slept a ton! I think my body may have been mad at me for pushing it to hard also. I think I got that from you! You would be so proud of my cooking now! I made yummy salmon for dinner! I've learned how to cook more for myself, since I'm out here and have nobody else to cook for me!

Also I did my laundry and it was so funny! I hung my clothes up and it was windy, but I didn't think it was horrible. Once minute I look out and my clothes are fine. The next I look and some are gone. The next minute anything on hangers were gone! It was so windy that all the hangers got knocked off the rod! I had to go downstairs and hunt for them. The area behind my apartment isn't big, but luckily everything was there! One of my shirts was on one of my neighbors laundry though. I tried to be real secretive about grabbing my shirt, but he looked at me real funny because he probably thought I was taking one of his boxers or something. But I found all my clothes! I'm not hanging clothes when it's windy anymore!

I'm reading a really good book called "The Last Song" and it's so good! It makes me cry a lot though. I've been so emotional lately and I don't know why. I even cried during Legally Blonde today. So crazy! I'm not homesick, but at the same time I am. I just miss my family, and you! It's crazy to me that I'm making these decisions and don't have you here to help me with it. i envy that Cathy had you and even Theresa had you to help guide them in the right direction. Sometimes I wish I too had you to help guide me. But because of you i'm going in the direction I am. So maybe you are guiding me this way still.

Tomorrow Arash gets here! I can't wait! I'm so excited! I know you would love him if you met him. He's coming for 9 days and I can't wait! Tomorrow we are either going to the city or karaoke around here. Either way, I can't wait to have him here. It's so surreal to me. He told me before he I left that he would come visit. I believed him, but I still had doubt in the back of my mind. I think he's an amazing man and it's surreal to me that things are still going on between us. I thought that things would be over between us by now. Not because he needed something else or I, but we didn't have a "title" before I left and we had a good beginning, but short. It wasn't like we drew out a commitment to each other and said what would happen while I"m away. But surprisingly I think things have worked out amazingly. We talk and email (text) often. I really just thought life would pull us apart, as it has with some people. Maybe not having the title has kept us strong while being away. None the less, I can't wait for him to come out here! I can't wait to show him around and how I've been living for the past 8 months!

Crazy to think 8 months have already past. Yes it has gone by fast at times, and other times slow. I am so happy I decided to do this now. It's exactly what I needed. I needed the time to get away and focus on me and figure out what I want. I know what I want now and I'm going to get it all! And I'm going to make you proud!

I love you mommy and miss you! I wish I could show you how I was living here also. Because of the strength you have given me in life, I am making it here. It get emotional at times, and at times it's hard. But the strength you have taught me and the woman you have shown how to be has made it easier. I know I can do anything, because of you!

Goodnight, I'm back to work tomorrow! For a day, then 4 off with Arash!

Love You!

Your Baby Grill